Wake up in a dizzy and blur condition, I quickly wash up myself and get ready for work as usual. Not that usual actually..things were different from now on which I don't know its temporary or for permanent time.I cry last night...till eventually I fall asleep without knowing what time it is. I know I will cry..loosing M was a big impact to me. This was a 2nd day without her in my life.I feels difficult in everything...But what could I say and do?There is no turning back this time.Though we have been through this many times before and eventually at the end we will patch up back but not this time.This time is for real...where I want it to be real and serious.Its not that I don't love her anymore...I love her more than myself..more than anything else in the world.I just couldnt tolerate anymore with her attitude..she claims she can't change..not even a single thing about it.She told either to accept or just leave it.I try before to accept..I really did...and finally I gave up after trying with all I can.But I never blame M for everything.I might just not the who deserve her..for I can't accept the whole attitude thing about her.I force myself to leave this relationship as for the best terms to both of us.
I pray hard that M will live a life better than mine..met someone who can accept the whole of her...makes her happy...I know this is not going to easy for me..I try to make myself focus on other thing else..keep on reminding myself that its for the good sake.I know i might never gonna see her again or even hear from her anymore as I know she doesnt wanna be friends with me.The whole day my mind were wondering somewhere else where I don't even know where.I keep glancing at my phone..hoping she will call or text me..but end up disappointed.I miss her, I can't deny that.Hope tomorrow will be a better day...specially for M.
beeboo boy....
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